These days keep hiding at home except work at weekend. The latest job gets me into trouble as they get something "lost" in the way and I would get me "bad luck" for my weekend. kinda zzzz.... when heard of that news. It was like "no wonder I had an bad luck sales that day." feels like the holiday will go in vain... T.T

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I was suppose to write this "dang held" letter since last week and yet i still can't figure out how to write. Who shall i write to, what should i say about the unit changing, and how shall i know this is so freaking annoying.

Haiz... somehow i am not in any mood doing anything. i'm impressed on those who can start doing a thing and finished it right at the time he or she starts. I can't, totally. i'm mood swing type and is i am disturbed, i am stuck and i dunno where shall i proceed. I am totally helpless by now, when there is a tutorial class debate later and i dunno what the heck apperwork i should hand in. i think the coursework marks are dying all the way.

And hate the office ppl that saying "i will chnage it for you" and next day "i need you to write a letter". heck i know what shall i include in and what shall i not? nvm i just write something in and let them settle.

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I feel amazed by myself. I slept 2am last night and woke by 6am this morning. That makes me have less than 4 hours of sleep. It’s kinda creep to just think about that.
Yesterday we did have a good time right? It’s right that “it’s not your fault or my fault, but since we both decide to have it at first, we should not regret and keep forward to have it, and be responsible ourselves”. Yeah I did say that.
It is nice for our last night. We have it our best night we ever had for long, and for now it is the best. Thanks for giving such a night. It makes me feel memorable. It feels like each quarrel makes us understand more about ourselves and also the others. Speak it up is the best way to solve our problems. Let’s speak up for next time. Angry angry cry cry will makes the “present” becomes a memorable “past”, and make it a history which we shall not have the same mistakes ever.
This morning I reach the college VERY EARLY again. I only had it on last year I think for the last time. The morning college has a different view and it’s still dark for the sky. And I watched it to become brighter and brighter. I never know that “black” plus “white” can becomes blue. Well it is a good day for me. No matter how late I sleep. Hehe.
Today will have class till 4pm… Mayb I should get some time to get myself a sleep.

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All of sudden remembered something that I feel quite angry. It's actually two days ago.

I can never imagine there are such a !@#$ outside there that can actually abandon their "best friends" when people are in a critical situation. Her mother is ill and people need to back hometown, her family now is having a crisis and she may not able to continue for her studies, yet (being as "best frens") they are pouring oil over the fire. Totally not helping at all.

I never noticed that these peoples are able to be so realistics when it affects their group assignments. Can't they be considerate a bit when people are having crisis back there. It isn't a nightmare if your group have lesser a person to do the job. Even the lecturer suggest the work can be done by 1-4 person. You really need that extra 2 people to do the job? I don't really think so. Maybe you wanna "tumpang" the group only is it? Lessen the jobs? I hate these types of realistics people. If I really need to cooperate with such a jerk, I rather do it myself if possible. Wanna be friends? Sorry you are totally in a wrong channel.

I can never imagine... You are studying in Counselling and Psychology. Totally not empathetic and be considerate. Don't ever mentioned that you are from our batch and throw our face away. You are worse than a wolf in the shepyard.

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There goes my 4 weeks semester 2. I feel like i have done nothing in my classes. And now my fren told me i'm not suppose to pon 3 times for my lecture. And now i did it alr. And this 4 weeks like pass without my notice. I haven't done any works related to my units. Feel like going to die this sem.

Although i did notice these:

-Grandma's bday alr past le

-Hui Chin's bday today, Gratz. Sorry for the late present in future (I wanna change the present, ok?)

-Finally found the sem 3 practicum place. It's an orphanage. Should I happy or not?

-Noticed that i need to get my resit form ASAP as the last day is 14 Nov (Hurry up and produce the resit form leh!)

-Tried to go for gym but always end up failed. (I wanna slim down!)

-NO MONEY TO SPEND LE!(Hurry up and pay me my salary leh)

-Owing many ppl's money (Sorry I'm working hard for it)

-Finding another better job (I dun want direct sales and networking job)

-Mayb should not spend money until i worked and saved until 1000 (HARD!)

-I wanna study my resit papers at first but seemed like fail le (T.T)

-Mum say she received many *booms* for Nov, need pay a lot of money for those red booms le. so cann't spend recklessly le (But i still want clothes. 10 per piece type)

-Mummy make passport to go Shanghai. It should be a good opportunity for her.

-Go ktv sing twice in a month. Too forceful.

-Spend too much on buying stuff like food, drinks, clothes(?), and dear's bag (over budget)



Haiz... Ariel need to work harder this month.

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I wonder whether is the menustration is working or is it really me that make it happen, what had happened is that I'm acting like a child asking Papa to take me out (caution: this Papa is actually Will). It's actually because today i have one of my class cancelled. so if I pon the next class i can leave by 12pm. Then i keep madding with msg noising that i wanna go out. Until about 1 plus i really did go out, but both of us looked unhappy though. Kinda regret that childish act.

Yea I know, Things that came out from our mouth can't reverse them. But keeping them inside oneself is really hard...

Today watched a movie. 10 Promises to My Dog. A japanese movie. Really touching. I think this movie make me cried the most, at least, i never cried that much outside my house. Maybe is that emotionally uncontrol-able that makes things turn bad. But thanks to this movie, mayb, that Papa's emo become better. At least we smiled back home.

Today's lesson: Next time I have to be more considerable for dear, mayb... Try my best dun emo so easily. Gonna need my frens to do that i guess...

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I'm being tired by the non-stop flu that has been attacking me for two days. I predicted to be a third day for tomorrow.

Last saturday, we had a gathering at kfc and xiaowei's house. The others left much earlier and i left onli when xiaowei is leaving her house. Because i think i would not have anything to be done at home, so let myself slack around with her, since she is lonely with herself at home (or mayb not).

Mayb i should stop right here coz my flu is really annoying me... May continue writing it after my assignments, should be.

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Today I should start with happy pictures then onli the bad afternoon.














Today have a terrible tutorial class. The lecturer is terribily strict, and impatient. But i alr prepare for it, since i know for her "superb impatient" attitute since i alr learnt from last 2 times of our meet. I preparing for the "superb stress" class since i know she is teaching me. I have calculate all the things that might happen and, BOOM all get shooted, I think i may have few shots but i alr build up a "wall" waiting her for shoot, no hurts after all.


When she comes in, a total silent strike then she walked in "very friendly". Then she start asking about the number for the class, coz quite a few numbers in the class onli. Then we say they haven't reached yet. So she start to call up the names, then continually ppls coming in. The first 10 minutes of the ppl still fine, not so much shoots. In between of it someone talked in the class, which he talked louder than her, the shoot started. She said "Why are you talking? If your talk are much more important than mine, then you should talk loudly." Wah got shooted. The whole class silent and even the breathing can hear (almost).


Then those that came in about 15 to 25 minutes late, the second shot came. Coz everyone of them said "I'm sorry", so she asked, "What are you sorry about? What is sorry mean?" Wah! The silent sure is tough...


Then after the name is called, she gave us her "rules and regulation". So I write it here for fun (and also for our fren who didn't hear clearly or see clearly what she had said.












Additional Rule set by myself (considered her condition)

Rule 6: Come 10 minutes earlier before her class. So that you won't get shooted.

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Today morning was still a good day, until something happened.

I forgot to tell Will that i will not be at college for today and somehow singing in sg wang with frens. And i was unable to notice my msg until the last msg he asked me about whether my class is finished or not, which was alr 2pm. I really feel sorry for it. I asked through messages whether he is angry or not, called him to make him talk with me. And the onli time he talked is when i called him in his driving. He never talked with me other than that.

I really wished he said he was angry, and scold anything out. I really wished so. I know keeping something inside will not be so good. But... He stay silent rather than talk anything to me. I can see how u looked and how is ur feelings from ur face. I'm not really that blur Wini from the last time u knew me. Studying counselling do mean to know what ppl thinks from their face and the silence won't keep ur emotion out from me.

I really wished that u will be able to share everything with me, just like what we did last time. But it isn't seemed to be able to proceed that way, is it?

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感情久了就会变成一种责任感吗？

我的性格像某人真的会有那么大的影响吗？

突然间觉得做人很矛盾。

真的会有那么的一刹那想要说自我了结，那么就没有这样的折磨。

Sorry guys, mayb not in so much good mood but i will try to be good mood on the assignment so that won't bring up so many problems to u guys....

Emo-ing~

P.S.

我比较喜欢哼歌，不太喜欢唱歌，因为我的声音不是那么的好听。

可是我爱听歌～

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Today is quite emo - for unknown reason i should called it. Feeling complex inside my heart. I should know what is the reason - the tutorial class that had today.

For some reason, sometimes i guess, listening someone telling their story isn't not a good work. After the client talks about their story, mayb they will feel better, but at the same time, the story that they had told, is actually a burden for the cousellor. Now i finally understand about Ms. Eva told about "Many ppl leave this sem". Suddenly, i feel like i will be one of them leaving.

If the client is sharing something about family, mayb i still can handle them... If they are talking relationship between one and another, or some stories that may actually change ur perspective about the client, i think, most probably, i will be emotionally disturbed easily... I will feel liek i will have conflicts inside myself. Mayb... It would be me the one who needs to be counselled, not the client...

That's should be case one for what disturbing me. Case two. It's about the assignments. The english lecturer i think she is... how to say, is being stereotype on some questions. If u bring up the big title, and u are not hitting what she is expected, she will say "this is not what i wanted' but never say what she actually wanted. then after we "walked" so many "roads" that had been in vain, she onli tell us that doing this topic does not have a well 'recommentation'. i really feel like, fish la u never tell us what u wanted truly. She just want to have the proper "recommentation" in the assignment, but i wonder, what gives u for the "article" what she really wanted from the article plz... Case two closed.

Case three was open after the class (actually i shouldn't be emo for it, but emotionally disturbed for no reason, just feel disturbed, plz be away from my life plz~~~). Saw see yeang after class. I was waiting for laputa and will to finish their class, and since i need to wait until then, i walked with see yeang go to have lunch(is it? 330pm alr lol) in canteen 2. When we were eating, we talked about things like relationship. then suddenly talked about Eng Tat(he really should call Egg Tart, eat by ppl and vanish from me plz). I wonder why he so like to stick with me. If he really need to use that laptop that much, just take it to in front of u, does not need to stick with me so much. You are making me having double relationship with ppl T.T Fish u la. Emo~ why he choose to stick with me rather than other leng luis in class? hui ling and hui chin also not bad ma. see yeang too. dun pick me up plz~ u made it looked like something is within us. (I dun want~ Erase it just like what ms.Eva said plz~~~) Case three close faster plz~

Actually at night time, case one is the onli thing bothering me (sorry girls case two i have done my best, but all of them are how to lose weight, kao ni men le) Then case four started, which brings up all emo together, dunno why. WIll going back to hometown at tomorrow after taking me back home, and i think mayb he couldn't train so he asked his fren to help him train. Then emo started. Why he never tried to ask me for help. Does he really cannot trust me on training bya bya? Then case one bought up alr. I am not gaining enough trust from him.

Then all the way Emo ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ till now onli better. Haha i think case closed for all after i take my sleep, since i will forgetting them all :p

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I really feel stupid for this semester. 3 units for 6 weeks. Then until now alr the second week the lecturer still not giving us the title for assignments while they ask for week 4 to hand in the assignments. Crazy...

And sadly... I gonna resit 3 papers this sem. It was like... What the fish, i thought i will onli resitting 2 subs. And it isn't a C- or D, it's a F for that suprising subjects. And i found out that many ppl F for that unit. Feels... Bad lecturer fails us all.

But mayb it's our fault afterall. That we didn't study enough for it, not giving the key ideas or what she want exactly. So our own fault, can't blame much.

this time the lecturer that setting the papers say she's gong to make the Q easier, so can't fail lo wini

XD

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The third sememster of my studies are going to start next week, but i haven't know my timetable yet. All my other frens from SAS and SBS alr know their time table, and they say all those time are very Fish(actually it's another word).

Haiz... Their time table at least release alr, but mine haven't... I'm quite worry. Does it needs me go to college again to check the timetable, just like last time? I DUN WANT!!!!!

Please la you Fish-king college hurry up and get my timetable done! T.T

P.S.

The subjects that i should be having in this sem are English for Social Science and Counselling Methods & Techniques (Part I). I wonder it is 14 hours per week or 16 hours per week....

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This week would be a hard week for me. My bro is at home for a week and i still got assignments haven't fin. Arr crazy assignments.

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Today i think i just have a arguement with Will.... I was just using my printer to print my assignment half an hour ago. He just sounds shocked and asked me u have printer?. I said got but rarely use. coz i never know when the ink will run out. Then he asked me why last time he need to print something in emergency but i dun wanna help him. Then he keep use the "if i drop into sea will u save me?" Sorry i dunno how to swim. How can i try to save someone if i know i will die jumping into it? The maximum i can do is throw in the tyres and try to call out help. I dun wanna play coll and try to suicide by jumping into the sea. Then he keep saying that not helping him that time = suicide. But those things is not my property. If that is mine then surely i will help. And i am using thm not under my brother's conscious. Even my projects that wanted to print surely need to print not when he's around. At least is when he's sleeping. Then he keep saying i dun wanna help him. Say even taking a few cents from me is like taking my life. I dun mean about that but if it really threaten a person's life surely i would liked to help. But must depends on my power control. If it's beyond my power and manageble area surely i can't help right? If i wanna donate i also need to depends on my pocket money and my expenditure. I dun have a large pocket money. Even if i dun have water to drink i also need to keep my pocket money and rethink about should i use on my drinks or just get the college water cooler water even if it's not clean. Even if i got extra money i should use it for my pleasure is that call selfish? I just wanna pleasure myself a bit out of the depression awhile am i selfish to do that? Why we need to argue about it. I'm kind of tired upon things like that.... I hate argues for something tiny stuff. It's not like me to start argue on the past things................ Let me rest for awhile mayb i will be cooled....

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Today i think i have done something stupid in my life. I purposely wake up at 645am to go to library at the college. While i actually having a terrible stomache... Swt it pains. Then when reach there the library havent open yet for sure, so i go canteen 2 for a breakfast. Eeks the canteen 2 food is always oily... Betahan le la.... But hold on hold on... It's cheap so bear with it.... You dun have so much money........ But it's fat!!!!!! F-A-T, FAT!!!!!!!! Haiz.... So after i fin eat it's 825am... So walk up there wait for it open lo.

But siao! I thought that author had wrote so many books that's sure got his book around. Disappointed our library is so "small"!!! I can't even find a book that's related to the topic. Wait there is a book, but it is borrowed by someone else... Grrr so "cheap" this library, until i can't stand it and take out the comic book that i bring in to library and read.

Will asked me to find somethings that related to causes and effects of phobias. I tried to find in the library, and the answer... NO!!!! Even i want a relevan subjects about phobias it doesn't even gives me. I feels like, is it really that hard to buy more books? Next time i do nto dare go to national library with high expectation alr. I need a breath of air...... When i start walk back to library, Hui Chin chase behind me and bought me the textbook that i wanted to use as references searcher. I tried all the author from the references of the book to the infoweb of the library, and my answer is..........NO AGAIN!!! I typed hundreds of the names in the book and i can't find even a book that is related. I feels really wanna curse around alr. suan mood bad again... Need a fresh air from outside..... Just when i walk out from the library.... Rory was sitting on the chair outside the library(BTW Rory is one of the soursemates and he was in the same tutorial group with me). He was waiting for someone that is appointed to come together to do the assignment. When i was chatting with him, Will comes around and i walked back into library again.... Just when i was half way reading the ideas of writing, jean aka lili aka lcl came to search for me. How come she knows we are there? So smart. Then we went in to study room, which we could talk as loud as we want. And guess who i saw? Rory is there, with Sue sitting beside him. Well that was the best chance to look more info and how to do from them. Then i received a signal from WIll that told me to go eat. Then it's a Sayonara for Rory and Sue and i leave the table and the next person i saw is Chui Wai comes in the study room with another laptop. Well i wanna eat alr so nvm about it.

The work was really bad. until now i still dunno what should i do with all those stuffs. I still have 2 more parts that i certainly haven't touch. And Pn. Koay (secondary school counsellor) wants to see my reports and i still haven't give her a look on it. It was an "ouch" for me... Sob when can i fin it.....

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I was thought that i still have two weeks time to do two assignments before. Last Thursday mum tells me that bro was having holiday from next week then i was having a terrible feelings. Bro will surely used up the computer and there is surely no time for me to use the computer. surf net is still not a big problem but the main problem is doing assignments. now it becomes i have a very less time to do all the assignments i have. and third bad news is that another third assignment needed to passed up by 17 december, monday. Arr how i can fin up 3 assignments in two weeks whereas i do not owned a computer!!!! Big Prob Santa saves me please.

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Today it was a bad bad day. It was the forth day of the cursing. i thought it was not that serious for the forthday, as it should be going slow by now, but suddenly i doesn't feel right alr.... .... Omg it was floating red alr...... I was nto able to move around, with the dirty pants of course, and i thought i promise to go out for a movie.... Why this spoilt my movie day!!! (I was actually planned to skip the lecture class right b4 the incident :P) Oh great now i got the perfect excuse to go back home what a good day. Then i asked Will to put me back to my home first for a change of pant. Then he went back home for getting money. Then I went for the Big Movie day.

Today's big movie is Bee Movie. I wanted to watch it long ago alr.... Finally i could watch it! Yay!!! Ehem.... The main character here is Barry the Bee. Well now i onli knows that bee never change a job. They work in the same job until their lives off. Our hero is not that easy to gives up. He went out the hives and look outside the world. His life was such in danger that should have dead for times. For the very last time he really almost has his life off. Luckily the pretty woman saves his life. Her name is Vanessa. Bees had been told not to talk to human. But our hero has spoken to our human heroin and here starts the journey.... No more movie spoiler but enjoy the shows.

Today i had not have my lunch until 4pm. Miracally i should have die from hunger but mayb bcoz of the worry about my pants i dun have the appetite. But after that.... My appetite has back and i was die from the hunger. Haha... And when i getting back to home i noticed that i still have rm2 stay still inside the pants that i had washed... And tomorrow i need to go for a counsellor session... T_T stupid TOCAP assignment....

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Ping Pong result : 4/6
English individual persentantion : B+

I want a better results.... T_T

And please someone teach me how to do the F***ing PA assignments.... I'm out of control.....

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Haiz.... The courseworks are always unable to finish de feeling..... When can i finish them.... T_T

Today i was out whole day for the BML coursework. For me i feels that.... I was meaningless staying at there. I do no feel any use for me at there btw... T_T And my money is going to used up again... T_T Daddy sure ask why money gone so fast, go out less one day cannot de meh... T_T Now i left rm15 and i still got 4 days to survive.... One of the day no meals still ok.... Now even if wanna drink some cold stuff also can't le.... T_T

Saturday need rm4 to survive, then friday and wednesday share share rm10 meh.... T_T Friday makes me feel suffer.... Mayb can't go gai gai le if so..... No gai gai week.... TT____TT

And another single assignment that need to passed up by next week, i need to done before friday coz surely at saturday and sunday can't done de.... Monday is the pass up day.... And totally no idea on how to do it, and no sample for modeling, how am i going to survive for that.....

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I think if I say
the "bore" word more
I will really become
a boring person...



There is no truth nor lies,
There is only trust and doubts.

♥ Love ♥
♥ Will
♥ To be Loved
♥ Window Shopping (but better if it is "purchasing")
♥ To hear, not so much on singing
♥ Travelling (but seldom able to)
♥ Dating~
♥ Animal, any of them
♥ Handcraft
♥ Cosmetics & skincare
♥ Salary (coz only then I can buy, buy, buy!)


X Hate X
X Alone, Dark, and Ghost Story
(include scary, horror stuff)
X Blood
X Someone else (too rude to list out :P)
X Back-stabbers
X Bugs (especially those fly one)
X Earning money (It's really hard, trust me!)


♥ X Love and Hate♥ X
♥ X Buses (Especially U11 & U24)
♥ X Study & Exams
♥ X Money and Time
♥ X Life and Death


SALARY OUT! YAY~ (but can't spend too much as I'm going to buy DEAR"S PRESENT!!! lol)

For people out there who wanna date me at weekends:
Please do so beforehead as I have my weekend schedule full with
part time jobs usually so if really wanna book me,
please tell me at least 1 week earlier~ TQ TQ :p


ok you all win. get yourself adding me @ Facebook.

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