Confused... - Thursday, March 13, 2008
Today is quite emo - for unknown reason i should called it. Feeling complex inside my heart. I should know what is the reason - the tutorial class that had today.
For some reason, sometimes i guess, listening someone telling their story isn't not a good work. After the client talks about their story, mayb they will feel better, but at the same time, the story that they had told, is actually a burden for the cousellor. Now i finally understand about Ms. Eva told about "Many ppl leave this sem". Suddenly, i feel like i will be one of them leaving.
If the client is sharing something about family, mayb i still can handle them... If they are talking relationship between one and another, or some stories that may actually change ur perspective about the client, i think, most probably, i will be emotionally disturbed easily... I will feel liek i will have conflicts inside myself. Mayb... It would be me the one who needs to be counselled, not the client...
That's should be case one for what disturbing me. Case two. It's about the assignments. The english lecturer i think she is... how to say, is being stereotype on some questions. If u bring up the big title, and u are not hitting what she is expected, she will say "this is not what i wanted' but never say what she actually wanted. then after we "walked" so many "roads" that had been in vain, she onli tell us that doing this topic does not have a well 'recommentation'. i really feel like, fish la u never tell us what u wanted truly. She just want to have the proper "recommentation" in the assignment, but i wonder, what gives u for the "article" what she really wanted from the article plz... Case two closed.
Case three was open after the class (actually i shouldn't be emo for it, but emotionally disturbed for no reason, just feel disturbed, plz be away from my life plz~~~). Saw see yeang after class. I was waiting for laputa and will to finish their class, and since i need to wait until then, i walked with see yeang go to have lunch(is it? 330pm alr lol) in canteen 2. When we were eating, we talked about things like relationship. then suddenly talked about Eng Tat(he really should call Egg Tart, eat by ppl and vanish from me plz). I wonder why he so like to stick with me. If he really need to use that laptop that much, just take it to in front of u, does not need to stick with me so much. You are making me having double relationship with ppl T.T Fish u la. Emo~ why he choose to stick with me rather than other leng luis in class? hui ling and hui chin also not bad ma. see yeang too. dun pick me up plz~ u made it looked like something is within us. (I dun want~ Erase it just like what ms.Eva said plz~~~) Case three close faster plz~
Actually at night time, case one is the onli thing bothering me (sorry girls case two i have done my best, but all of them are how to lose weight, kao ni men le) Then case four started, which brings up all emo together, dunno why. WIll going back to hometown at tomorrow after taking me back home, and i think mayb he couldn't train so he asked his fren to help him train. Then emo started. Why he never tried to ask me for help. Does he really cannot trust me on training bya bya? Then case one bought up alr. I am not gaining enough trust from him.
Then all the way Emo ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ till now onli better. Haha i think case closed for all after i take my sleep, since i will forgetting them all :p
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